fallenangelsheart87

she stairs at me as if she knows with a smile she hides and a life so far gone you can tell in her eyes that she is dead a lifeless look that she gives me questions my soul does she dress this way to impress or disguest will she be hurting later on today, people call her names and ridiquel her which kills her soul i look at her with eyes wondering who is this lost girl? then i realize that it is an image of my self with a reflected glass i see who i am but now only one question in mind how do i help her?

i feel like i am dreaming i fear that someone will wake me soon a couple of slow breaths then some slow kisses cautiously saving every touch with a few more breaths and reality is no more could life be this blissful is love spouse to be this way stairing into your eyes i feel lost we are like one person when together but when apart we can not find our selfs this moment has become frozen in memory but when with you every moment has become frozen as long as we are together life will never part us so long as we are alive the memories will be too. i wrote this last year. 10/4/04

you wanted it that night you wanted your blood to run out of controle i bit you harder and you loved the feeling of being lost, and you loved your blood running hotter than hot to a boiling tempeture you wanted it and i gave you what you wanted did it feel good to you do you want to remember how my teeth sanking in to your skin just enough to get your heart beating so fast that i could hear it how i wanted to pierce your frail skin and sink in to a pardise all of my own with just a drop of your blood your every breath was so intence your heart was about to give away to me then i controlled my hunger by pulling back just enough to make

sunbeams of golden rays blowing like wind grass cloudy skys of capturing moments move me with silky velvet your hands give me the most pleasurable hugs i have ever knowen a dream i wish to come true a dream i only want to become true i love you more than youll ever know i wish i could tell you ive tried to hint to you youre everything i need you  have been my life ever since we met i remember us across from eachother i remember our silent moments i remember our silent words i remember us i remember you and i.

are you ok, is something wrong did she hurt you again was it because of me i'm sorry i kept silent i didn't know how to tell her to stop i was frozen in fear of her going after me i couldn't stop her yelling i couldn't stop her abuse i coudn't do much of anything what happens to me shouldn't have mattered its you that matter to me are you ok did she hurt you was it because of me she raised her hand to you and you flinched she has hit you before hasn't she my heart raiced for thoughts, words but it was better for you if i just left closing the door behind me i left i was fine on my own yet you came after me you left her y

Dissappointed beyond belief But to sad to care I carry on crying as if i'm not there Wishing for another place I am so tired of wishing Always of holding on to whats not there As this tear rolles down my face beyond my chin I now realized i was holding on to thin air And you were never really there.

your face is like a warm summer breez rushing all theses feelings into me your voice takes even the smallest worry in my mind away your hands intwined in mine helps me to feel safe your eyes show me that even the darkest days can still shine throu your lips spill over with hevenly kisses when they touch mine you are what makes all my clouds go away even when gone just thinking about your love so devine makes my heart skip a beat even if we are miles away because of you that is all it takes.

on the edge on my seat bitting my toung afraide of my own shadow looking for a way out i finally see the door i run towards it, it's not getting closer i want to run but something is holding me back i try to run i try to hide i feel for a way out i'm scared im cold i have holes in my clothes i have a heart of an cowards but as i sit in the corner covered in fear trying to cry i hold back the tears he comes towards me my cowardful heart goes cold my mind goes to a blur next thing i see is a body bag red and blue lights go throu the air his blood coveres my hands i feel no remorse i feel no sorrow i feel no pain he cant scare

my feelings flow strong for you like the currants in the sun i never saw it comming my eyes to closed to see now with you opening them ive realized we are two different people but do you think this was an accident or fate it took famlies and friends to make me notice it but it took you to make me feel it when i would run and cry you were the only one who'd find me with in a blink of an eye when i was mad you'd calm me down you were their for me and i never knew it but since you pointed out how fast this year went i noticed everything you've done for me and i just noticed... it's always been you never the other guys; just y